Alvin Jarryll Anak Joseph - 2202193
Dear past self, how are you doing? I don’t think you can read this at all, but who knows, time travel might be a possibility or a time loop. Nothing is for certain after all.
I would like to say a lot of things to you. Things I should and shouldn’t do, and things that could be an opportunity that I missed. But alas, I don’t think that’s even possible. Well who am I to say if something is impossible but that’s a question for another time.
First and foremost, I just want to say thank you, for being who you are. It’s not exactly easy being the clueless buffoon that you are sometimes but somehow you still managed to get to where you are right now. It still deserve an applause regardless - well it should be more like a pat on the back in this case.
Normally, I would want to write something I want to avoid and what I could do better for myself and ways to improve myself. But I don’t think that should be done, for now at least. I just want to tell myself that whatever I mistakes I did, whatever stupid decisions I made and whatever impulsive action I acted upon.
Maybe I do want to give you advice or maybe lecture you. Remember that 3 cheesy pizza you ate in one whole sitting? Maybe stop doing that please? I mean the pizza is great - no regrets there - but I don't think lactose intolerance give a single care about me. It's a pain in the bum - quite literally to be stuck in the toilet just suffering from nature's call of wrath.
That's one of it, another one is - STOP DOING THINGS LAST MINUTE! I know that procrastination is huge issue for you - and you're quite easily distracted and quite often time have difficulty focusing. Maybe it's ADHD; I'm not diagnosed with it - well I never went to have it properly check for.
Some things quite often time feels difficult, dreadful and anxiety inducing for you. You have a habit of bottling your emotions a bit too much, perhaps way too much. It is going to be a problem if suddenly a trigger cause you to explode out all that pent up emotions. Have a confidant, someone you trust to talk to. There is no need to talk about all of them all at once, just share a little a burden. I don't think they mind listening to you about it. Don't worry too much okay, you got to do it at your own pace and don't rush it. Haste makes waste as people say.
I do not think I have any other words to say to myself. So I believe this is where I conclude my writing. Remember - take a deep breath and relax when you feel overwhelmed. Goodbye and take care.
